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[Jul. 8th, 2009|12:07 am] |
No, just... NO.
It's not okay to put your dog, some rocks, and a dead chicken in a barrel and roll it down a hill. It won't teach the dog not to kill chickens. IT'S FUCKING PSYCHOTIC.
You don't put your dog and a chicken in a feed bag and BEAT the bag.
You don't tie your dog to a spot for a WEEK with a rotting carcass and BEAT IT WITH IT every time you walk by.
You don't shove a dead animal in your dogs face so they can't see you and BEAT THEM TO SHIT.
You don't fucking do these things! They're NOT RIGHT. They're NOT TRAINING METHODS, they're PSYCHOLOGICAL TERRORISM.
Just like you don't fucking tie a toddler to his bed to "teach" him it's bed time, you don't fucking do this shit to your dog to "teach" him not to kill birds.
It's wrong. I hope everybody who ties a carcass to their dogs neck gets one tied around theirs.
Sometimes people make me want to vomit.
I love it, how people are so perfectly at peace with destroying lives of living creatures who have no way of defending themselves against attack. |
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[Jun. 29th, 2009|12:04 am] |
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Lmao.
Made a "How well do you know me?" quiz on fb. Daniel got 66%. I was all like "HAHA! U FAIL!" 'cause the test was totally rigged and i didn't expect anybody to get 100%.
Then Namuu comments all like "HAHAHAHAH!"
I'm like... "WHAT THE FUCK IS THAT SUPPOSED TO MEAN?!"
'cause we hate each other, and i know he was making a joke about some shit or another.
He'll forever be on my "list of people i'd like to slap with a brick".
Hey guess what Namuu? WOMEN HATE YOU, ESPECIALLY THE ONES YOU FUCK.
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[Jun. 10th, 2009|07:32 pm] |
Daniel bought me this bitchin' new computer so that i could play the sims3. I <3 it, it's fast and is awesome.
Tomorrow is the last day of swimming lessons, which is awesome/sad. The kids get popscicles, so that's cool. I can't wait till we have time to start really going back to the gym. I think i'm going to make the bread rolls myself for camping this weekend since bread is so expensive and bad for you! I hate eating the preservatives they put in bread, it's nasty. I think i might make a few more loaves of banana bread too, since that's a big hit with Daniel, i'll probably make a "healthy" loaf for Erin... then again, maybe i won't and i'll just keep the banana bread for myself. Come to think about it, i don't know if i'll have time to get to the store to get applesauce... but ugh, maybe i will. If i can get some applesauce i'll make a healthy loaf of banana bread.
I can't wait until those stupid chickens start laying eggs.
Stupid chickens. |
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[May. 18th, 2009|08:41 am] |
I had a dream Daniel was cheating on me, and i was so upset i was hitting him in the face with a brick, but his face refused to break, which pissed me off even more. I woke up and told him about it and he said "I'd never do that to you! You're all i ever need." .....Daawwwww!
On a side note, i caught myself saying "you're in BIG trouble!!! Can you say big trouble??" yesterday... D:
I was in such a bad mood yesterday afternoon but Daniel had to stay home from work and it ended up being a really nice evening, even though i felt sooooo bad that i fell asleep way too early, and Daniel didn't wake me up to help him with the dishes... The good news is i totally got enough sleep to get up this morning with the baby and not be completely exhausted. As soon as Daniel wakes up we're going to the gym... I feel good today.
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[May. 5th, 2009|10:46 am] |
Had a dream, the kind i used to get... but it wasn't really that upsetting for some reason.
I guess i just thought i was done with certain people running amok in my brain-balls while i can't control my thoughts.
Oh well... maybe this is a step back, maybe not. Maybe it's a mistake to write about it, if it's going to give my insecurities more power.
What the fuck pornography? What fuck. |
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[Apr. 19th, 2009|11:49 pm] |
Ugh, i'm sleepy.
Still have to switch the laundry though, so i can't go to sleep yet.
I don't know why, but brushing my teeth at the end of the day always feels like SUCH A HASSLE, but i do it anyway because ... ew, what if i didn't?
Man, i wish i could get this stupid yarn even. I JUST WANT YARN I CAN CROCHET WITH. Well, i guess it just takes practice. I need to learn how to knit, i love the way knitted things feel versus crochet things... except blankets, i like crochet blankets... can you even knit a blanket? I dunno. Bah.
I have to work out tomorrow, i wanted to work out today but ate frozen yogurt instead, haha. AWWW, there's a commercial for DogTown, and i want a german shepherd. WANT ONE.... in theory anyway.
I'm watching Naked Science about global warming and how it's all cyclical and is caused by the three malankovich cycles. Theoretically the earth should be cooling down right about now but because of carbon gasses... blah blah blah. STOP BREATHING, YOU'RE RUINING THE EARTH. God.
So it's getting warmer, we'll adapt and eventually it'll cool down again. Some animals will go extinct, others will rise up and take their places. DUN DA DUUUUUUN, CYCLES!
Honestly i don't really know why people are so obsessed with keeping things exactly the way they are know forever. IT'S IMPOSSIBLE.
Regardless how it happens, the Earth will cool and heat and cool and heat for ever and ever and EVER, and no ammount of tin foil on the iceland glaciers will stop it.
Soooo, volcanoes erupt, emmitting more green house gasss with each eruption than we've produced since the begginning of the industrial revolution and people die, and things CHANGE and we can either adapt and deal with it or we can freak out and buy into the hysteria being spoon fed to us by dingbat "scientists" who can't even agree on WHY the earth is heating up, but for some reason have no problem telling us what we can or can't do in order to stop it from heating up.........
Yeah... go ahead and try to "reflect" the sun, see how that works out for you.
So, cycles. ... cycles.
"OH NOES! THE LAND IS DISSAPEARING AND IT' S TOO WARM!!!! !!@!! "
"OHMIGAWD!!!! THE OCEANS ARE RECEEDING AND WE'RE ALL GONNA DIE CAUSE ITS COLD!!!!!"
eye yaaaam weeetahdet.
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[Apr. 16th, 2009|04:34 pm] |
haha, every time Noah changes the channel he looks at me and goes "eh, broken?" Today he was crying when he woke up from his nap and the dog went to his door to see what was going on, when i took him out of his crib she walked up to him to make sure he was okay. It was pretty freaking adorable.
We were at the Biltmore today and saw some dude with a wolf, like... not a wolf/dog crossbreed but a pure bred wolf. I wanted to ask him about it, but i chickened out, probably because the dude was all dirty and scary looking haha. Man, i'm cool like that.
I've been getting really dizzy a lot lately, last week i went to pick the baby up and i starting falling, i had to set him down really quickly and then sit on the floor for a while, it was a long time before it passed too... i dunno what that's all about. Today i leaned forward at lunch to give the baby some chips (sun chips > all other chips, ever.) and i suddenly felt like i was on a boat rolling along swells in the ocean. Just now when i went to get Noah out of his crib i felt huge pressure in my head, like i was out of air and i was dizzy like i was going to pass out. Weird.
I've been spinning yarn. I love it. One day i'll save enough money for a spinning wheel, but they're like between $300 and $700.... SO it won't be for a while :( That's okay too though, because with a wheel there are a whole host of new things to learn, like adjusting the speed, tension etc. So that's cool that like, i can just do what i know on a spindle for now. Besides, spindles are historically accurate if i ever decide to become a middle ages re-enactor, haha. I dunno... there's a place in Tempe on University that has spinning classes and they're pretty friendly there, if i get a wheel i'll probably sign up for one.
Ugh, i feel all sick. There are dishes to do and dinner to be made. The baby just woke up from a nap and i'm exhausted. Blah.
OH well, tomorrow is Daniel's weekend, so that's awesome. I'm doing better with him working nights than i thought i would, and having money to pay the bills is all kinds of awesome. I sure do miss him when he's gone though. |
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[Apr. 2nd, 2009|12:42 pm] |
The baby is sick.... ugh.
trying to keep up with everything but i'm stuck in the back room and have barely left said room, let alone the house in a week.
I'm trying to keep up with the mess but the laundry is still piling up and...
NO ONE FED THE CHICKENS?!?!
How can you let them out EVERY DAY and not ONCE check their food?!?! |
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[Mar. 31st, 2009|01:02 pm] |
SO Daniel got me this nifty new ipod nano... I've officially crossed over to the dark side, my days of being apple free are over. *le sigh*
You know, it's not a 250 gig ipod touch or nothin' but i LIKES IT. It's blue, and 8 gigs is big enough for all my music and then some, and small enough to keep me from spending a shit ton of money on itunes. Who the fuck listens to 8gigs of music anyway?! (insert snarky remark about vdeos/pictures/games etc. fuck that, i don't give a shit about that stuff... that's what i have a computer for.)
I'm listening to Feist and dancing my ass off around the room while i continue my futile effort to clean (or i was doing that before i was distracted by... ohhh shiny!).. HURRY BEFORE HURRICANE NOAH WAKES UP FROM HIS NAP AND LEAVES 8.4 MILLION DOLLARS WORTH OF DAMAGE IN HIS WAKE... and by damage i mean spitting milk on the floor and dumping out his toy bucket for the ten millionth time TODAY.
So yeah, actually Noah is being super good today, which is amazing considering the poor guy has his second year molars coming in and he's got a fever/the runs/nausea/a cold with a sore throat. :( He woke up at 9:30 this morning and went back down at 11:30 and is still asleep (it's 1:10) I gave him some tylenol so he could sleep better, i hope he feels better soon. He keeps asking me to go bye bye but i don't think that's such a good idea at the moment.
So i bought a drop spindle (shh, don't tell my husband... GAH! DANIEL!!! YOU DIDN'T TELL ME YOU WERE STANDING THERE!) Anyway, i got this like.... beginners spinning kit, and i'm like, obsessed with the idea of spinning my own yarn. I can't wait till it gets here *holds breath*, i'm gonna make YARN! Then i'm thinking about dyeing it and making it into a scarf or something equally awesome like weaving a belt or something hippie-ish.... Like a HAT. Maybe i won't dye it, maybe i'll just weave/crochet/knit it with it's natural color... i dunno yet. THE NEXT STEP IS A LOOOM LOOOOOOOOM OF DOOOOOOM! I like the idea of a tapestry loom, but i dunno. I really want an inkle loom, cause i like the idea of little inkle straps, they amuse me. Plus inkle looms are a heap cheaper than table looms or even tapestry looms.
But... BUt... SPINNING!!! I can spin cotton and bamboo and silk and cashmere and flax and linen and wool and alpaca and MY DOGS HAIR FOR CRYIN' OUT LOUD. Hey, that's an idea. lmao. THEN I CAN MAKE THINGS!! !LIKE HATS AND SCARVES AND BELTS AND SWEATERS (but i hate sweaters, so probably not those) AND IF I GET A LOOM I CAN MAKE CLOTH AND THEN I CAN... SEW THINGS!!
OH MY GOD! I COULD MAKE BAMBOO CLOTH! GAH!
SO excited.
Also, i kinda would like another baby... in theory anyway. I wouldn't mind being pregnant, or having a little baby around but i could really leave out the "birth" thing.
ALSO ALSO!!!
My chickens are more awesome than YOUR DOG, or YOUR CAT, or YOUR well.. actually, maybe not... but they're pretty fucking awesome as far as totally awesome rad and bitchin' chickens go. I lurve them. |
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[Mar. 9th, 2009|04:55 pm] |
Obama is reversing restrictions on federal funding for stem cell research. A lot of people are happy about that... though i'm not sure i'm one of them.
The real issue is how when asked about whether or not this opens the door to human cloning all he said was "Not cloning for reproductive purposes"
... which totally leaves the door open for cloning embryos for experimentation, and mass producing copies of copies for tissue "sales"....
I just keep running that scene in Alien through my head where Ripley sees all her clones and the one lying on the table is begging her to kill it.
Scary shit dude.
On a lighter note, MY CHICKENS FUCKING LOVE ME, which is why i'm more awesome than EVERYONE. |
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[Mar. 4th, 2009|11:55 am] |
Had to go to the emergency room saturday night because it felt like my uterus was going to shrivel up and fall out of my crotch. It was horrible. So at like 1:30am i have Daniel drive me to the ER where i get to wait in a wheel chair in the aptly named waiting room in excruchiating pain for three hours before they call me in.. i didn't really mind though since there were a lot of people there sicker than me. By the time they got me back though, and lot of the pain had subsided... rather than feeling like i was going through labor, i just felt like my uterus was being pushed out my bottom. So i get back there and i have to get a blood test, a urine test and then i get a chair (they don't have beds in triage anymore, apparently), it was a nice chair though.. and they hook me up with an iv (second attempt, first attempt the guy put the needle THROUGH my vein.. now i have a huge bruise and blood blister because my vein was still bleeding after my skin healed) and go "have you ever had morphine before?" "No?" "well this is morphene, it's gonna feel weird going up your arm and make your mouth taste like chemicals" It actually felt like someone was trying to expand my veins with baloons from my hand to my neck then my mouth tasted like a combination of gunmetal and nail polish remover... I never want to take morphine again. I did get a "drug rush" but it was so short it was hardly worth the discomfort.
Then they decided they wanted to do a CAT scan and an ultrasound, so they send me to the radiology place and they put contrast dye in my blood so they can see my blood vessels and it makes this like HOT HOT sensation all down your body, starting at your hands and going all the way down to your feet, once it gets to your crotch you feel like you're pissing yourself, only i could tell the difference because i've actually pissed myself at the hospital and this feeling wasn't nearly as wet. :P The CAT scan lady was super nice though, and she liked my wedding ring, so she's OK in my book.
Then i went off to ultrasound where i got to have some Indian woman tell me how much she loves her IUD (I'm against birth control now, since i'm convinced it fucked me up and CAUSED THIS PROBLEM), while she's causing me immense pain by pushing TOO FUCKING HARD on my abdomen. THen she does the vaginal ultrasound, and the whole time is talking to the attending nurse about how she's the kind of person who puts her career above her kids, and how anyone who has kids under 25 is a waste of space and a burden on society.... ALL WHILE SHE'S POKING AROUND IN MY VAGINA.
Then i wait another three hours for my results.. They didn't find anything and i'm not pregnant... "it might be inflamed bowels" the doctor says to me, but they don't know for sure because THEY DIDN'T FUCKING TEST FOR IT. and then he goes "Take it easy on the diet, take this perscription for viccodine and come back if it happens again"
So then i went on this "liver cleanse diet" which was like, no protein and no fat... andi was so weak i could barely walk from my bed to the bathroom so i said forget it and just decided to try to take it easy and EAT SOME FUCKING MEAT.
All in all, it was a great way to spend nine hours in the middle of the night.
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[Feb. 22nd, 2009|01:16 pm] |
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Well is terrible, and it's only 1:15.
This morning i get an email about somebody wanting my cockerels, so that was awesome... except i'm like, completely handicapped when it comes to dealing with strangers... so i was like, physically ill when i had to talk to the guy on the phone. Then i see one of the birds i'm selling has been pecked at, and he's bleeding... so i'm upset about that because you can't cure cannibalism in chickens once it starts... but whatever.
The coop is almost done so we put the chickens outside for the day... at which point Noah steps on one of the other cockerels i was selling... which really upset me, doubly so because i had no one to blame for it.
Then lunch rolls around and Noah chokes on a hot dog, like, to the point where i screamed "HE'S NOT BREATHING!!"" and Daniel whipped the tray off his highchair right fast and put him belly down over his lap and whacked him on the back until he started crying. Thank God for Daniel, i'm crippled without him.
Then we're back outside and the baby decided to go up the ladder that was left out, so i went up there with him thinking... like... hey, if i'm up here with him it should be okay... then i had Daniel take him down, and i was on my way down but he was talking to me so i stalled, then the baby decided to try to come back up the ladder but he slipped and chipped his tooth at which point Daniel yells at me "YOU'RE GOING TO HAVE TO COME OFF THERE AND FOLD IT UP!!" and i was all upset and couldn't get off the ladder because the baby was right underneath me, which probably just made it look like i was just hanging out up there for shits and giggles. THen i was mad at Daniel for yelling at me, which he thinks is me blaming him, i guess. So then i went to put the baby down for a nap and he came in just to scold me some more in front of the baby which really upset me... so like... whatever.
I don't care. I know i'm a fucking miserable mother and wife and i'm a waste of human tissue and all that fucking jazz.
I'm just done for the day. |
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[Feb. 21st, 2009|06:42 pm] |
I still wonder sometimes.
Yeah, still wondering. |
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[Feb. 16th, 2009|02:20 pm] |
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Had a really awesome Valentines Day this year. We didn't celebrate our anniversary on the 9th, so we waited till the 14th and had mom watch Noah so we could have an all day date. We went to the Tempe Marketplace because they were trying to break the world record for the most kissed received, which we wanted to participate in, plus there was the smooch a thon, which was fun. We ended up breaking the world record, so like, awesome! Guiness was there any everything and Daniel and I totally were a part of that which is so cool. We had lunch at Kabuki, went and saw Taken, which i thought was really good. We played some games at Dave and Busters, read a little at Borders, had dinner at Maria Maria, the best part of which was the free margheritas, lump crabmeat tostadas and mmmm.... mango bread pudding with mango ice cream. SO GOOD <3!! Then we walked around target (i know haha) for a bit and came home at like 8:30. Got the baby ready for bed, hung out for a while and then turned in... All in all it was pretty awesome and i loved it. Then yesterday we thought we'd take Noah to the park to feed the birds, but he twisted his ankle the poor thing, so we had to come home without playing at the playground. It was so sad, i was on the verge of being really upset about it too... Then later we put our jammies on, and went to safeway to get some chocolate moose tracks ice cream and had it with whipped cream and hot fudge. It was awesome, then we put the baby down, and Daniel and i watched that thing about the 6 degrees of separation, cleaned the house, finished some craft projects and went to bed where we talked about video games for another hour until we couldn't keep our eyes open anymore.
It was a good weekend, and today i'm happy :)
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[Feb. 7th, 2009|08:14 am] |
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I was hoping that that chick would just die and that i wouldn't have to kill it, but dammit. ITS NOT DYING. So i don't know what to do.
Going to the Ren Faire today with the family... 60% chance of per-cip-it-ation whee.
Uhm, lesse, lesse........ http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=w3qFdbUEq5s THAT is fucking hilarious/terrifying. I hope that woman chose to never procreate. |
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[Feb. 5th, 2009|07:33 pm] |
Chickens came today! 12 pullets and 7 "packing peanuts", which i'll have to get rid of when they get bigger, but for now they're cute, and sweet. One of the EE pullets came injured though, her legs are deformed and it's caused her to have sores on her ankles which i think have gotten infected. She's all limp on one side and i really don't think she'll make it. Still, i splinted her legs with bandaids which made her a little stronger, and she's eaten and had water, but it'll be a long shot. :(
Anyway, i guess 11 out of 12 being sprightly and healthy is a pretty good ratio considering. The Silverlaced Wyandottes are kinda scared, and the Black Australorps are especially naughty... there is one in particular that is really spirited. The Gold Sex Links are typical, the RIR are sweet, but by far the Easter Eggers are the sweetest of the pullets. Ironically, the cockrels who i think are White Leghorns who are notoriously flighty birds are the sweetest and calmest of all the chicks... but i bet they'll change. |
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[Feb. 2nd, 2009|11:18 am] |
I'm a little frustrated. Like, why are so many people suffering because of the recession (my family) and then other people are completely unaffected, but COMPLAIN ANYWAY (THEIR family).
I don't have insurance for my son, so i can't take him to the Dr. Daniel can't find a job because everyone's on a hiring freeze, and my parent's can't afford to employ me full time, and even if they could, there's no work because no one is traveling, so ... whatever.
I could apply for AHCCCS or whatever, but then Daniel would have to stay unemployed in order for us to qualify. If he gets ANY job we'll be making too much as a household to have the baby on govt. insurance. If he gets a job with no benefits, we're screwed, unless of course i put the baby on my insurance, and my entire monthly pay goes to insurance and then we live off whatever Daniel could make from whatever minimum wage job he can get in this shit economy.
God i hope we get our tax returns soon, we're running low in the pot.
Hey Messiah Obama, YOU PROMISED YOU'D FIX THIS SHIT.
You fucking impotent bullshit asshole.
Spending MORE of our money will NOT FEED MY SON YOU SELF CENTERED WHINY RACIST FUCKING SOCIALIST PRICK.
Infrastructure projects in OHIO WILL NOT GET MY HUSBAND A JOB IN ARIZONA.
And making sure QUALIFIED WHITE contractors aren't getting stumulus money? FUCK YOU.
Apparently, "equal opportunity" means "racial favoritism" or "at the expense of those who happen to have been born WHITE"
Oh, and, Nancy Pelosi is the FUCKING ANTI-CHRIST. |
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[Jan. 24th, 2009|11:23 am] |
chickens, chickens, chickens (they come Feb 5th!!)
soap, soap, soap (Starting a business, hey, even when everyone's poor, they still have to wash)
jewelry, jewelry, jewelry (I'm making THINGS to SELL)
baby, baby, baby (well. yeah)
building, building, building (a HOUSE for the CHICKIES)
broke, broke, broke (!)
Such is life.
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